THREE WEEKS TODAY!!!!!!!

We went ahead and scheduled the induction for the 2nd of July, that is if she doesn't come on her own first, and I'm freaking out just a little bit.
The 2nd. That's just three weeks away. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH. What three weeks? I'm not ready, Jeff's not ready and I know my kids aren't ready. Oh sure. They say that they are, but what about me and what if she doesn't turn. I don't what a C-secion. I don't do good with pain and am even worse with pain killers. The last time I had surgery, the pain killers put me back in the ER two days later. So what do I do with three kids if that happens again? A newborn needs its mother and I don't think Ainsley and Jackson would like it that much either.
Not to mention the condition of the house right now and that I need to make dinners for while I'm gone and just back from the hospital.
I'm OK. I am. I just needed to get that out there so that it's not in my head anymore. It will all be fine. I already started cleainig, so I'll get there.